feeling so down.. =(

Hi guys..well its been so long since i post something here...i know i am not supporsed to bring my relationship in this frens community..but then where else should i go?? i just have you guys nie...hmm..life has been like 'HELL' this past few days..i have been having some misunderstanding with my BF..and now were not really talking nicely to each other like we use too..and its hurts alot..but still I have to put on a smilling face whenever I go..at work I have to be cherrful..in college I have to be talkactive..and in home I have to be smilling and act like everything is normal and perfect! and believe me its really to do so...I think I made things worse...I just could not shut my stupid mouth!! And today I am suffering like this...help me guys! I really can concentrate in anything when my relationship situation is like that...I have never been to sleep happily since that day...i am feeling so down and broken...I just love him so much..and I dun wan to lose him too..I hope you guys can make me laugh and happy..thats all I need...I wanna be the Mao Mao that makes other smile, laugh and happy..I want to be that Mao bec..not like a dead duck..I hope you guys will be with me in this kind of time..love you guys alot!

from Mao..